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Thanksgiving 2021

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Happy Thanksgiving 2021!!!
As the evening comes to a close I decided to just write about being Thankful.
Many of you know that Ron had a major health scare this past weekend.
Saturday night/Sunday morning Ron had a mild heart attack and was admitted to the hospital here in Wesley Chapel.

Even in the midst of scary things it’s always a good time to learn new things: I learned how to make a phone call between three people!! So thankful I was able to talk with Jamie & Brandon at the same time…it helped to calm this mama’s heart especially not knowing what was going on with Ron.
I also put gas in the truck for the first time!!
Found out it doesn’t need a gas cap ~ how cool is that?

Monday found them running ultrasounds on Ron’s legs and lungs to make sure there were no clots. Praise the Lord none were found!

A second issue was that his kidney numbers were out of whack and due to that they could not schedule him for an angiogram. So 6 hydration bags later and two days and Ron was ready for the angiogram.

Wednesday found lots of prayers going up for Ron, for me, for us, for the doctors and all involved in dealing with Ron’s health issues.
We’ve had some tense moments: when the port blew in Ron’s arm yet the Lord provided an ultrasound machine and a great tech who got another IV started…needed to keep that hydration flowing.

Two hours and forty-five minutes after Ron was taken for the heart cath procedure the doctor was back in his room while Ron was watched in recovery. The doctor stated there were no need for any stents ~ Praise the Lord!!

Yes he had a mild heart attack but it doesn’t appear to have any residual effects. Next up was getting the results of his most recent blood tests…yeah, his kidneys are working right and his numbers are coming back down. Praise the Lord!!!

The last thing needed was for the primary care doctor to say Ron could be released AND that happened about 4:45p on Wednesday!!! Praise the Lord!!!

After lots of paperwork we were headed home…via the emergency room to get his arm rewrapped to stop the bleeding where the IV had been…go figure!! So off to get prescriptions and pick up our mail we finally made it back to the trailer at 7:15p!

We were greeted by Brandon, Christopher, Treyson and Alexander with dinner: pitas filled with tzatziki sauce, curried chicken, spinach, tomatoes and feta cheese ~ yummy!!! The boys played some football while we visited…it was nice to get hugs and be together and a perfect way to end a very stressful few days!

Today dawned with bright sunshine and blue skies,
we both slept well, Ron slept for almost 12 hours straight ~ not surprising after three nights in the hospital…he said he would just get to sleep and then someone would come into his room to check his vitals, ask if he was in pain or if he needed anything? So sleeping in was nice!

We then made our way over to our daughter-in-love’s parents home for a wonderful dinner and fellowship.

Today I am thankful for my family, friends, all the love, prayers, support and encouragement ~ we definitely feel loved and cared for!!!

Hope y’all had a great and wonderful Thanksgiving!!!

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UGH ~ part 2

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Depression is no fun!! And there is no rhyme or reason for it!!! I don’t get it. I don’t get it why it flares it’s ugly head for no apparent reason
I think that is what is going on with me.
Okay, I admitted that’s where I am at!
Now to get out of it ~ that is the question.

I slept most of last night,
slept in till about 9:30 this morning,
went grocery shopping,
came home and made dinner ~ put potato soup in the crock pot.
That is the least I can do for my hubs…
make a good meal for him before he goes to work.

Took a 2+ hour nap on the couch
I did empty the garbage!
And cleaned the kitchen

And I have zoned out on Facebook,
watched two Christmas movies,
tried to write a meaningful blog post ~ that didn’t happen!

I’m supposed to go to a brunch/Bible study
tomorrow yet I’m already battling with myself
do I go or not go?
I bought the fruit salad
and I talked to Julie (so she is expecting me)

So I decided to look for some uplifting scriptures:

21 Inspirational Bible Verses to Encourage Your Spirit
20 Encouraging Bible Verses - Encouraging Words from the Bible

and then I found this:

5 Encouraging Scripture Verses for Hard Times - LetterPile

and I felt a little nudge from the Lord ~
just do one thing,
one thing today,
and then another thing tomorrow
and i feel encouraged
and a little lighter in my heart.

Thank you Lord for meeting me right where I am
just like You always do!!



I’m writing this in blue because that’s how I’m feeling…blue, meh (borrowed from my bestie), tired, teary eyed…if there is a negative word that is me today and I’m not sure why.

I kind of alluded to this yesterday in my post…just feeling bleh!!! And I really don’t know why.

Life is good…Ron has a job. I have lots of free time..both alone and just hanging with my hubs. We have plenty of food on hand – granted it’s not all healthy stuff but hey it’s food. Our cupboards have lots of stuff in them. We have potatoes, ravioli, rice, pasta, cereal, oatmeal…all sorts of stuff…that I know I shouldn’t eat a lot of it, especially a lot at any one time but at the same time I’m not throwing perfectly good food out to go buy more especially since we haven’t worked or had a paycheck for a month. Ron gets his first paycheck on Friday ~ it will be a partial one as he only worked part of the week and we have some auto withdrawals that we have to make sure we have the money in the bank to cover them plus our other bills will be coming due in the next couple of weeks and not knowing exactly how much money will be coming in the door is causing me lots of anxiety!!

We have found a good doctor and are starting to get back on track with regular visits and since Ron is working at Amazon I have health insurance (a big deal with having diabetes and on two different insulins!) and Ron is on Medicare so that didn’t change.

I’m feeling a bit of stress over our trailer…we have a leak, we know where, just have to figure out how to fix it and then do it. We need 48 hours of absolutely no rain once we put the sealant on the seams…and a tall ladder for Ron to be able to get on it to put the sealant on…there is no way this lady is going on or even close to the roof!!!

I know all the things I should be saying to myself but it sounds hollow. I have plenty of time to write yet I just want to sleep or eat or both…but hey I’m not snacking in bed so that’s a good thing. Oh let me tell you what I did the other night…Ron had gone to work, I wanted to watch a movie but was afraid I would fall asleep so I thought about propping myself up on all the pillows on our bed…we have like 7 between the two of us…okay I have 5 and Ron has two LOL…and I wanted some popcorn. But remember I’m not eating/snacking in bed anymore so what’s a girl supposed to do.

So I made my popcorn, propped up all the pillows, crawled on top of the blankets, turned the movie on and watched a Christmas movie…talk about guilt…Christmas movie in November…OH NO, Ron would have had a fit LOL, does sitting on the bed, propped up on pillows count as eating in bed??? Not really but boy did I feel guilty. And like I told my friend, Lynda, many years ago…I am my own worst enemy as I tattle on myself all the time!! And I did…I emailed my Bestie, Dee, the other day and fessed up to eating the popcorn on the bed. But being the Bestie that she is…she never said a word to me…but let me tell you the guilt from that has been gnawing on me and I haven’t even considered it since!!!! So what do you think? Did I break my streak of not eating in bed? Should I start the count over?

I’m laughing at myself as I wrote the above but still feel like a frumpy fat cow right now, still wanting to just go crawl into bed and go to sleep…asking myself how do I get out of this funk? Any suggestions?


Grace Filled Food Freedom ~ Day 22

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Day 22: Desperate Times Call For…Desperate Measures! Isn’t that what we tell ourselves?

VERSE:“And there was a woman who had had a discharge of blood for twelve years, and though she had spent all her living on physicians, she could not be healed by anyone.” Luke 8:43 ESV

READ: Luke 8:43-48

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EXCERPT: What do you desperately press into in your moments of distress? What would happen if you put the same amount of effort into seeking the hem of His garment as you do into pursuing food? For those of us who feel chewed up and spit out by diets and our feeble attempts to reel in our eating, it would change everything. Your problems are not too big or too small for our Lord. He is waiting for you to reach out... so that He can show up like no other can. And that is exactly how I feel so often…that my stuff, my issues are so insignificant to God and others and even to myself. Yet God tells me/us that he cares about everything we think and do. Then why do I question so often?

What would true desperation for His help look like in your life? Determine a plan of action that’s not dependent on you, and decide how you’ll press into Him the next time temptation hits.
Lately I’ve been feeling like I am on a merry-go-round, just spinning round and round and constantly back to where I started. I KNOW that’s not true but it’s how I’ve been feeling and sometimes my feelings get the best of me!!!

I’ve noticed that in the past few weeks I’ve been spinning round and round, that my depression is coming and going like a roller coaster goes up and down…that one day I am wearing a mask, the next everything is out there raw and untouched. I just don’t get why I can’t seem to be stable…stable in my eating, stable in my walking, stable in my thinking and then I find myself questioning what is wrong with me?

I set goals and make plans and then feel like it is all for naught…why bother because nothing seems to be going my way…I just don’t get my thinking lately…one minute I am feeling confident, trusting the Lord (at least I think I am) and the next my anxiety is climbing through the roof. One minute I feel loving and kind and the next snarky and ready to bite someone’s head off…I just don’t get myself lately.

There’s a part of me that just wants to tell the world and all those in my life to leave me alone yet in the next breath I am not wanting to be alone, thinking I need to find a job, need to get connected to in person friends. I feel like I am on the questioning merry-go-round and that it is getting ready to spin out of control!!!

Even as I am writing this I’m thinking…why am I whining? I have a good life…a husband who loves me, kids who care about me and call me and want me in their lives but in the next breath thinking why bother???? Do I post this blog or toss it??? Do I eat something or not? I want to go out to eat yet I just want to eat candy!!! I want to go for a walk but then I want to go crawl back into bed!!!

I’m just in a quandary!!! What to do???


Catching Up and Changing Things a Bit

What’s happening…well I have walked three of the last four days…reached my goal for this week. By the end of November I want to be walking 5 out of 7 days a week. I need to see things completed/marked off so I put a little list at the bottom of my daytimer…categories are: Blog, Devotional, NOOM, Daily Housework, Walk AM & PM, Journal and weekly Laundry. I love to see the tally marks adding up.

Blog ~ goal is to write at least one blog post a day. The topic may have to do with my devotional, my getting healthy journey, life happenings or just random thoughts.

Devotional ~ spending time in the Word. It could be from an email, reflecting on sermon notes, reflecting on a meme/picture or something else shared on Facebook relating to Scripture or the Lord.

NOOM ~ I joined NOOM on 9/27/21. I have worked on different habits, starting new ones, quitting bad I mean, unhealthy habits…like not grabbing a snack and eating it in bed as I scroll through Facebook or play games before I fall asleep. by the way as of today it has been 31 nights!! of no snacking in bed when I go to bed at night!!!! I don’t report the days every day but I do keep track for myself plus I do like to get those pats on the back for sticking to something!! You know, being encouraged always helps me to stay on track!!!

The other habit I have been working on is not drinking soda pop: whether diet, zero or with lots of sugar!!! I really started focusing on that habit on 11/1. So far I have had 4 soda’s total…not bad for a girl who has been known to drink 4 to 6 cans/bottles a day!! Yes per day!!!!

Daily Housework ~ probably some people just think is a given but in may case I can be a slug, crocheting, trolling on Facebook, reading, zoning in front of the TV and and truly just be a slug. This helps me to focus on one thing each day to do. Whether it’s cleaning the bathroom (my least favorite) to doing dishes (yes I have been known to leave dishes sit for 3 or 4 days!!!) NO JUDGING! and everything in between.

Walk AM & PM ~ my goal, like I mentioned above is to be walking 2x a day 5 of 7 days by the end of November. So far my four walks have all just been once a day…but hey, starting somewhere. Today I have a good chance of getting both walks in as I walked this morning after Ron went to sleep after working his first night at Amazon. And he works tonight so I will do what I did last night ~ he left for work about 5:30 and I went for a walk then. He plans to leave about 5:15p tonight as he was 4 minutes late last night…traffic around Wesley Chapel is something we are not used to!!! When working at AKP, we were due to be at work at 10a and we got off at noon…both times are not high traffic times…well 5:30p is high, high traffic times here!!! As our son informed us after we moved from Seffner to Wesley Chapel…during the summer Wesley Chapel has about 25K people but in the winter when the snowbirds arrive the population can increase to 100K or more!!!! Yep we need to do a bit more planning!!! So I’m actually tracking two things in regards to my walking…both AM & PM and then twice a day!!!

Journal ~ what does that bring to your mind? Writing in a journal but isn’t that what my blog is…a journal of our life, the good, the bad, the highs, the lows and everything in between…YES…for me when I see JOURNAL what I am thinking of is transferring all of my handwritten journals to the computer…remember my dream to write a book some day…it is still on the back burner and I have a couple of ideas and one of the tools is to have my journal writings from the past 45+ years on the computer!!! Yes I have been journaling since Ron and I got married. I actually started in the Spring of 1975. Some journaling was done daily, sometimes I didn’t put pen to paper for weeks on end. It is also interesting to see how my mind, my behaviors, my beliefs and life in general has changed over the years!!!

Laundry ~ now why would I need to track laundry…well there is a couple of reasons. One I like to know how many loads I do a week and how much we spend on laundry. It’s amazing how some weeks we can four or five loads and other weeks we have only one!! I’m trying to see if there is a rhyme or reason to it…nothing big or serious, just curiosity!

So now it’s time for a few questions…
What are some things/topics do you like to read about more? Is there one thing over another?
Do you like pictures in the blog? Personal pictures? Images from Google? Memes?
News about my health journey?
Or just a hodgepodge of things?

What’s happening with us?
For the time being we have decided to stay put here in Wesley Chapel, Florida. We are about 25 miles from Brandon and his family. We love being able to spend a few hours with them, visiting, sharing a meal, watching the Seahawks as well as lots of other sports. We also enjoy being able to go to their sporting events. This weekend we are going to watch Treyson and Alexander in their championship soccer games!!! Last weekend we were able to go and watch Christopher play basketball! By the way, his team won 44 to 22!! And oh the memories that flowed during practice and the game…remembering when Jamie & Brandon played sports!!! And I thought about a weekend we were in Idaho when Brandon was coaching one of the Boise Flight teams and we all got stuck at the hotel (us in our motorhome) and Brandon called and said do you think $XXXX will cover pizza dinner for all the boys, coaches and parents? No problem. Ron and I jumped into action and threw together a chicken noodle casserole, spaghetti, salad and picked up oranges and milk and took it all to the hotel to feed the gang. You know what they say “Once a Team Mom, always a Team Mom!” whether your own kid is playing, your son is coaching, a grand is playing…always a team mom!!!

So for now, Ron will be working at Amazon. One of the perks is that he gets medical benefits which means I still have medical insurance and it started the same day he started with them!!! As you may know, diabetes medication costs are out of this world…the difference is paying over $600 for one month of one type of insulin verses $30 for the same medication with insurance!!! Thank you Lord for providing for us!!! Ron’s work schedule is 6:30p to 7:00a Thursday, Friday and Saturday nights! So three days a week of work and four days to play!!! Almost as good as working 7 days on/7 days off!!!

That may leave you wondering what will I be doing ~ well playing on Ron’s days off, being a Grammy every chance I get, resting my foot in between walks…it is getting better but still aches sometimes when I am up and on it for a whole day, writing and crocheting!!!

I have lots of crochet projects to finish and lots I want to do but I’m also going to try to see if I can sell some of my creations. Here’s a few pics of some of the things I have made. Let me know if you see something you like and let’s chat about how you can get some great items and I can make a little money!!!

Baby Hat
Baby Girl Outfit: includes bonnet, booties, dress
(one of many toys I have made: unicorns, kitty’s, dogs, etc.)
Headbands…all sizes and styles
And for fun…remember the toilet paper shortage in summer of 2020! Made and sent to a dear friend 😃

And lots of blankets…you can also check out my Crochet & More by Ali page to see other things I have made for gifts and by special request!

Well I guess that’s enough rambling for today!
Don’t forget to answer the above questions!



Please excuse my rambling thoughts…the following devotion resonates with me so I want to share yet I know my mind has been going on lots of little rabbit trails the past few days…so my writing reflects that…anyway, I hope you enjoy reading about what my crazy brain has been thinking.

Midnight Mom Devotional  Tonight we pray for the momma who is worried. Her heart is heavy. She’s having trouble sleeping. She may even be crying inside but putting on a smile for others. Lord, there are so many things that we as mommas worry about daily and even nightly. You asked us to give it to You. Tonight, we give You our worries. We ask for Your peace. We thank You for taking care of all our needs. Please help this momma to find community and any help that she needs. Please grant her sleep tonight. In Jesus name we pray, Amen.

I’ve read this post multiple times in the past day…as well as reflecting on a couple of verses from our sermon this past Sunday…WORRY…

And immediately my mind goes back to different times in my life where I have worried myself sick or beat myself up because something wasn’t going right or the way I thought it should. It’s called control…or should I say lack of control…that’s when my worry really rears its ugly head!!! And the flip side is the mask I wear when on the inside my worry is overwhelming my mind and body every way possible.

I am always amazed how the Lord brings lots of things together to remind me of certain things. And today it happened again. In the message given at The Gathering, Pastor Fred was talking about how we are to love one another as Christ loves us and how we can’t love others like Christ loves if we don’t love Him first!!! The second is to rely on the Holy Spirit as we go through our days. The fruits of the Spirit are all the ways we demonstrate love to others and ourselves!

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The one I struggle with the most is SELF-CONTROL … control of myself…and wanting to control others, heck control everything!!!

Back to the devotion: worry is so easy to do yet so harmful in the long run. I remember a conversation I had with Pastor Charles’ wife, Margaret, one day while Jamie was in Iraq. (I did a ton of worrying that year!). And she told me that she would pray for Jamie everyday so I could take worry off my plate. I wish I could say I was able to do that but I can’t…I did still worry a lot, but I found myself praying more too! When I would catch myself worrying about Jamie…I would think about what Margaret had said, then say a prayer for Jamie and move on. I also remember when our grandson, Max was in Kuwait/Iraq years later how my worry was so different…I can actually say I don’t think I worried nearly as much for Max but I sure did a whole lot of praying!!!

Do you worry?
What do you do so you don’t worry about things?


Grace Filled Food Freedom ~ Day 21

I originally wrote this post on Sunday, November 7th. I had written for about two hours and when I went to publish it either my internet froze (happens a lot here in the campground) or my computer froze and I lost everything after the first PURPLE line below. I was so bummed I just closed up my laptop. And it has taken me to today, to come back online to write…don’t know if it will be just like the post I lost but know it is written from my heart!!!

May be an image of text that says 'Day 21 Perfect Father, I'm so grateful for the unconditional love and acceptance You offer me, even on my worst day. Help me to remember this in those moments, so that I can sprint to You at the first sign of a slip GRACE FILLED PLATES'

Day 21: There When You Need It Most

VERSE:“Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need.” Hebrews 4:16 ESV

READ: Hebrews 4:14-16

Good Morning Message: Hebrews 4:14-16 – CROSSROADS MINISTRIES

EXCERPT: Like a child who hurts herself by doing the very thing she knew she shouldn’t have, she runs into her father’s arms for comfort and to mend her wounds. In the same way, we can approach God. Not because of what we have done but because of Christ who “passed through the heavens,” came out victorious, and made us children of God.

GRACE IN ACTION: Whether you were blessed with loving parents or not, consider what unconditional love looks like. What does it mean to have no strings attached to adoration? What would it feel like to know you always had a safe place to land?How could this affect your relationship with food? Determine one way you can begin to walk in this assurance today.

Wow!!! This daily devotion really hit home for me. First, the child who does something that she knows is not okay or safe and still does it and then expects her mama or dad to love her, fix it and make everything all better (from Grace in Action above). And the line from the thought for the day: I’m so grateful for the unconditional love and acceptance You offer me, even on my worst day.

11/10 ~ beginning again…starting with the second line that really spoke to me…unconditional love and acceptance…the first man I can remember just loving me for me, accepting me for me and just loving me because would be my Grandpa George. My mom’s dad.

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I have so many happy memories of my Grandpa!!! I think I was 13 in the picture above. I know we were living in Rancho Cordova and Grandpa was living with us. One of my craziest memories of him was one day he told me to sweep “around” the kitchen. So that’s what I did. I swept around the kitchen. Needless to say, he wasn’t very happy with me and I remember him telling me “girl, sweep the whole kitchen!!! someday you are going to have a husband and do you think he would be happy with you if you really only swept around the kitchen?” In the 45+ years I have been married to my sweetie I can’t tell you how many times I have thought about that day!!! And when I had teenagers I totally understood what he meant!!!

Probably one of the most precious memories of my Grandpa was when Brandon was born. I wanted to nickname him Brandy and Anne, Ron’s mom, told me he wasn’t a jug of booze BUT you know what, my Grandpa always referred to him as Brandy!!! When Brandon was six months old, my Aunt Joan and Grandpa came up to Washington state to spend a few days with us. That was the last time I saw my Grandpa alive…he died two years later on Halloween. But we talked often on the phone and I am so thankful for those calls. He always reminded me that my job was to be the best wife and mom I could be. I wish I could say I have always been the best wife/mom but that would be a lie. I have struggled in those roles but through it all, I knew my Grandpa loved me, loved me for me, loved my boys even though he only saw them a few times and he loved Ron, even though he was in the Air Force and rode a motorcycle…but he loved me…unconditionally and always. Even when I didn’t sweep the floor right. LOL!!!

The second man to love me unconditionally is my sweet hubby, Ron.

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Ron, when I met my Military Man!!!
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Ron, 46 years after we met!

He has been the real human example of how God loves unconditionally. He has loved me through the good times and hard times, through laughter and tears. And every day he tells me he loves me. I used to tease him and tell him he only loved me because God told him he had too…he would get so mad at me for saying that BUT that was how I felt…I didn’t think I was worthy or deserved his love…like how I felt about God too! I can remember asking Ron many times…why do you love me?? And how often he had to reassure me of his love. I am so thankful that Ron never gave up on me and continues to love me just the way I am!

The second line (well the first one) is about the child who does what she/he knows is wrong but does it anyway hoping and believing that her mama or daddy would just love her anyway…Oh how I wished for that mama or daddy…the same little girl standing with her Grandpa, just wanted her mama and daddy to just love her, not condemn her, not judge her, not call her names just love her. And that brings me back to God loving me unconditionally. And how I am making peace with food ~ not judging whether food is good or bad…it’s just food. And with God loving me unconditionally learning to love myself the same way. And extending grace to myself just as God extends grace to me and I am so willing to extend to others.

Reflecting on

I am reminded that God, as Jesus while walking here on earth was tempted in the same ways that I am tempted. I have been trying to be more in relationship with the Lord when it comes to my eating, how much I eat, when I eat and what I eat. Just this evening when we were at The Gathering at church ~ we were fellowshipping and sharing a meal together. I tried to be selective on what I was taking but the pumpkin pie was so tempting and there was whip cream to go with it…one of my favorites that I usually only eat around Thanksgiving. I asked Ron if he would get me a small slice with some whip cream.

In my mind I pictured this:

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But this is what he brought:

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I was disappointed…BUT by the time I finished the ham, half the baked potato, some salad, a slice of bread…I realized I really didn’t want the piece of pie lathered in cool whip…so I took three bites of the filling and the little bit of cool whip and it was okay!!! In fact, it was more than okay, it was enough ~ and that is what I call a win in this journey of making healthy choices!!

How do you acknowledge a Win in your lives?
For me…a win is feeling GOOD with my choice!!!


Grace Filled Food Freedom ~ Day 20

May be an image of text that says 'Day 20 The deepest longing of my spirit is to hate sin the way You hate it, Lord. But, struggle to allow the knowledge of my sinfulness to bring life rather than death. Help me to see Your plan in repentance, so that| can walk in the gift of salvation You have granted me! GRACE FILLED PLATES'

Day 20: Are You “Guilting” Yourself To Death?

VERSE: “For godly grief produces a repentance that leads to salvation without regret, whereas worldly grief produces death.” 2 Cor. 7:10 ESV

READ: 2 Corinthians 7:8-10

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EXCERPT: The enemy will only use your efforts to put a wedge between you and God. Turn his plan on its head and choose to pursue the Lord, in prayer, asking Him to plant a seed in your heart, so that you hate your sin the way He does. Then, cozy up on the pillow of His lap– the place where His love will cultivate your heart.

GRACE IN ACTION: What is the role of guilt in your food life? How is it helping or hurting you? The next time you feel like the solution to your problems is “feeling worse,” step back and determine which course of action will help you move away from food and to the Lord.

I used to feel guilty whenever I was eating what I call “junk” food…cookies, candy, ice cream or eating in secret or when on a binge. I have worked to change my thinking of the good/bad foods to food is just that food. It is not always easy to not think negatively about my food choices but each day is getting better than the day before.

I also think back to our many years of being house parents and how often the kids were quick to say they were sorry for whatever and we would tell them sorry is just a word, put some action behind that sorry…that shows that the sorry was sincere. And that’s what this scripture is telling me…put the action behind my thoughts. And that my thinking needs to not change for a day or two but for always.

I am encouraged each day to do just a bit better than the day before. I struggle often with my decisions and more so with my thinking. This morning during the worship service I was reminded by God’s word

Ephesians 6:18-19 – God's Grace ~ God's Glory!

And I’m reminded over and over that God’s mercies are new every day and the most important thing in my life is my relationship with the Lord…that’s what He wants from me…to have a relationship, for him to be my best friend, my confidant and most importantly loved unconditionally by him.

Two other verses that jumped out at me was

Matthew 6:34 — Scripture Type



Day 19 ~ Grace Filled Food Freedom

May be an image of text that says 'Day 19 Gracious Father, my soul and spirit are hungry, and I find myself trying to fill them with that which will never satisfy. Help me to seek Your nourishment so that I will hunger and thirst no more (John 4:14). GRACE FILLED PLATES'

Day 19: Are You Leaking Water?

VERSE:“For my people have committed two evils: they have forsaken me, the fountain of living waters, and hewed out cisterns for themselves, broken cisterns that can hold no water.” Jeremiah 2:13 ESV

READ: Jeremiah 2:9-13

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EXCERPT: If you feel bogged down in your sinful ways with food, do not allow it to put a wedge between you and God by keeping your eyes on your faults and giving ear to your negative self-talk. Allow Him to provide you with His vessel of refreshment– and allow your need for Him to grow your love.

GRACE IN ACTION: Consider how you will transfer your effort and admiration from food to God, and make a plan to do it at least once today!

As I read the devotional for today and found the picture above I imagined the pitcher as me…beautiful to look at from one side but if you looked on the other side there is a crack, even a hole, seeping and leaking what’s inside me.

That is so me so much of the time.
I feel good one moment and then boom, I feel like I have been trampled on and everything in me has leaked out.

I struggle so often with feelings of
am I doing enough?
do I spend enough time in the Word?
why do my prayers seem so shallow when others sound so eloquent?
how can I love more?

I have had some people tell me “you are always so positive” ~ NO, not really, just out in public
“I wish I had your faith” ~ Oh, if you only knew how many times I cry out to God that I can’t keep doing this, whatever this is

As I have been working, and it is work, on making healthy choices, eating better, moving more I battle the thought
“why bother?”

And I realize I bother because I have learned to love myself.
I am far from perfect but if I can do one thing better today than I did yesterday
than I am better off today than yesterday.
And so I keep putting one foot in front of the other

One Foot in Front of the Other – HD Clarity

One foot in front of the other,
one verse or paragraph in the Word every day,
one more step on the pedometer than yesterday,
one more ounce of water than the day before.

Do you set long term goals or short term goals?
I’ve found, short manageable goals are better for me!!!
Maybe that’s why I get excited when I realize I have gone 26 nights without eating/snacking in bed!!!

What small goal have you set for yourself that you want to celebrate today?


Grace Filled Food Freedom ~ Day 18

May be an image of text that says 'Day 18 Heavenly Father, show me how to make an honest assessment of which foods are good for me and which ones are "too good" for me, right now. Help me to remember how You have set me free, but that freedom also includes the freedom to say "no" sometimes. GRACE FILLED PLATES'

Day 18: When Food Is “Too Good”

VERSE:“But put on the Lord Jesus Christ, and make no provision for the flesh, to gratify its desires.” Romans 13:14 ESV

READ: Romans 13:11-14

Romans 13:11-14 | Faith scripture, Scripture verses, Biblical verses

EXCERPT: There are plenty of amazing and incredible foods that you can prepare and enjoy that are good but not “too good.” As you improve your skills and strengthen your spirit, you’ll be better able to navigate the foods that tend to hobble you now. And someday, those cupcakes will go stale on your countertop.

GRACE IN ACTION: Take a look around your pantry. Are there any foods in there that trip you up? Can you temporarily remove them from your home or store them out of sight? Think about any foods that you’d label “too good” to have around the house, and consider taking a break from them while you work on your relationship with and your reliance on the Lord.

Food you can’t live without it ~ so how do you do that in a healthy manner? One of the things I am working on is portion control. For instance tortilla chips…making a plate of nachos…layer the plate with chips, add the cheese and other goodies then another layer of chips topped with more cheese…probably a quarter of a family size bag. But check out a serving size…14 chips!!! What?? So I tried something…I put the 14 chips on the plate added my cheese (divided in half so I could have some on top), added some black olives and black beans and then topped with the rest of the cheese. After melting the cheese added a half of avocado and a little pico de gallo ~ yummy and definitely filling!!!

How does this fit with the above scriptures…the desire of the flesh!!! I am so used to eating such large portions ~ the desire of my flesh…but you know what, stopping and planning and a healthy serving of nachos was plenty for me.

Do you eat mindlessly?
How about fixing what you think you want and then realizing it’s way too much for one person for one sitting?

How do you decide how much to fix to eat for one meal.
Measuring is such a huge wake up call for me.