Day 19: Are You Leaking Water?

VERSE:“For my people have committed two evils: they have forsaken me, the fountain of living waters, and hewed out cisterns for themselves, broken cisterns that can hold no water.” Jeremiah 2:13 ESV

READ: Jeremiah 2:9-13

EXCERPT: If you feel bogged down in your sinful ways with food, do not allow it to put a wedge between you and God by keeping your eyes on your faults and giving ear to your negative self-talk. Allow Him to provide you with His vessel of refreshment– and allow your need for Him to grow your love.

GRACE IN ACTION: Consider how you will transfer your effort and admiration from food to God, and make a plan to do it at least once today!

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As I read the devotional for today and found the picture above I imagined the pitcher as me…beautiful to look at from one side but if you looked on the other side there is a crack, even a hole, seeping and leaking what’s inside me.

That is so me so much of the time.
I feel good one moment and then boom, I feel like I have been trampled on and everything in me has leaked out.

I struggle so often with feelings of
am I doing enough?
do I spend enough time in the Word?
why do my prayers seem so shallow when others sound so eloquent?
how can I love more?

I have had some people tell me “you are always so positive” ~ NO, not really, just out in public
“I wish I had your faith” ~ Oh, if you only knew how many times I cry out to God that I can’t keep doing this, whatever this is

As I have been working, and it is work, on making healthy choices, eating better, moving more I battle the thought
“why bother?”

And I realize I bother because I have learned to love myself.
I am far from perfect but if I can do one thing better today than I did yesterday
than I am better off today than yesterday.
And so I keep putting one foot in front of the other

One foot in front of the other,
one verse or paragraph in the Word every day,
one more step on the pedometer than yesterday,
one more ounce of water than the day before.

Do you set long term goals or short term goals?
I’ve found, short manageable goals are better for me!!!
Maybe that’s why I get excited when I realize I have gone 26 nights without eating/snacking in bed!!!

What small goal have you set for yourself that you want to celebrate today?