Monday Morning Musings

Can’t believe it is Monday once again.  
Life just seems to be speeding by. 
Had a fun weekend celebrating Ron’s birthday.
Had friends stop by the campground 
and enjoy coffee and donuts to begin the day.
Had a great visit with Darrell & Patty 
brainstorming about ideas for the campground.
Enjoyed dinner and seeing Barbara Fairchild & Roy Morris’ show at Golden Corral and visiting with them for a little while afterwards.

Sunday found us helping guests a few times 
and painting the apartment.  
We cranked up some great Southern Gospel music and painted, painted and painted some more.
All the walls are done and trim work in the bedroom is finished.  Today and tomorrow will be more painting of trim work.  It is coming together and I can’t wait to show it all off.

God is so funny 
and I am always amazed how he meets me right where I am.
This morning was no different.  
This is what He shared with me as I was contemplating my day:
 
Yesterday as we painted and sang along with the radio,
I thought about how singing just made the work go faster.
Not sure what radio station we were listening to 
but it was playing some of the old great hymns:
Standing on the Promises of God

The Old Rugged Cross
Power in the Blood
and
Jesus Loves Me
 
…that one made me cry
 
as I thought of just how much God loves me.

I was sharing with someone earlier in the week about our boys and how we always celebrated Jamie’s birthday on August 8th – cause that is the day he was born and we always wanted it to be a happy day.

And that on August 11th we remembered our baby, Jamie’s twin, 
Royce Alan
on the day he went home to be with Jesus

and that on August 11, 2009
32 years later
God orchestrated the date 
Max legally became Brandon’s son, and our grandson.

We shared so many happy tears that day.  
It was like God took a day that had always been hard for us 
(and in some ways it still is as we will never forget Royce 
as we wonder what life would have been like if he was still with us here on earth) and made it extra special by adding our first grandson officially into our lives.  

And then this morning God’s word was
 
and how as we have worked on the apartment
God’s love has 
been proved over and over
with the love of friends and family
with words of encouragement,
notes on Facebook,
and helping us paint.

And we look forward with anticipation
to have visitors in our home.
We love to entertain
and even though we have done some entertaining 
while living in the rig
it is not always easy to do
so watch out Branson peeps
be ready to have some fun times at the 
Wandering Workentins
stationary home!!!

Thank you Jesus for helping us to build 
our home on solid rock, with your love
and for encouraging me each and every day.

God’s Blessings & Wise Words

First off,

 
Spent some time with the Lord this morning before the rush of the day.

He is so Faithful to me and I am so Thankful to Him.

Yesterday we were blessed by one of the couples here in the campground

with a
 
along with corn-on-the-cob and hush puppies dinner!!!

God is Faithful and provides for us.  Dinner was delicious and a special treat as we had been busy in the office and painting in the apartment.

This morning, my scripture came from 
 
and
 
Immediately my thoughts went to where my life was in the late 80’s and 90’s when I struggled with such bitterness, anger and hurt done to me by my parents and step-father.
And the lingering pain today that my sister, Joanie chooses not to have anything to do with me or my family.  I have tried so hard to find out why she hates me so…but since she won’t talk to me, it’s kind of hard to find out.  The last time I spoke with her was in Laughlin, NV when I saw her when our older sister, Kathy had passed away.  I said hello and she said hi.  When Ron and I were leaving I said Good-bye and she would not even look at me.  Thinking about this makes my heart cry.

The truth of the abuse that was put on me as a child, teenager and even a young adult along with the hatred and hurt feelings that I felt towards my parents and confessing all that hurt to God has definitely set me free.  And healed my heart from so much.  

I am so thankful for a God who loves me through the thick and thin, who surrounded with me with a wonderful and caring pastor, a good ARNP who knew what combination of medication would get me through the hump of major depression, suicidal thoughts and anger bursting from the seams, along with a friend/counselor who sat with me for many hours, praying and crying with me, just listening and praying some more…who let me yell, cry and scream but most of all loved me through some horrible pain, and the best hubby any girl could ask for, who got way more trouble than he bargained for, two sons who love me and forgave me for the not so nice parenting I put on them at times, and for special friends who stood by me, encouraged me, told me never to hang up the phone on them ever again ~ and I haven’t 🙂  

I am so very thankful for the love, forgiveness, care and support…there are not enough words to express my thoughts but there is still some pain when I think of my sister…our parents and grandparents are all gone, our older sister is no longer here either (taken from us at age 54…too young to die) and yet my heart craves for a relationship of friendship with my younger sister.  I know she reads my blog, so once again I am reaching out…please tell me what I have done to hurt you so bad, please let’s heal this relationship before it is too late, and even if not for me for our sweet niece…we are her family and she needs us both.

I love you Joanie!!!  Life is too short to let hurts from over 20, 30, 40 years ago keep us apart.
You know how to get a hold of me…as they say…the ball is in your court and it is time for you to take a shot.  You have 2 beautiful nephews, with sweet loving wives and 5 beautiful and sweet great nieces and nephews who would love to be a part of your life and you a part of theirs.

Patience & Forgiveness

Patience & Forgiveness

and
 
I have been feeling impatient with myself.
Feeling like there is so much to do
and not enough time to get it done.

This morning I am reminded that I need to be 
PATIENT
with myself. And with others.

I feel like there is so much to be done
and it is 
 
and then I do one of two things.
I either get frustrated with others and myself
or I hide and do nothing.

This morning I was reminded that 
 
is what is important.

And so I come to God this morning
asking Him for patience in attacking my LONG To Do List
and
forgiveness for letting my frustrations run loose.



A Little Encouragement from God this morning.

I can’t believe it is
a
 already!!!
What a busy week we have had.
Lots of work and yet found time to play a little.
Yesterday we spent about five hours working on the apartment.  The bathroom carpet was pulled up and surprise there was linoleum underneath so that came out.  All the faceplates were taken off in the bedroom and bathroom and both rooms are taped and ready for some paint.  Can’t wait to get started on that…not sure when that will happen but I know it will be soon.
I found myself a little disgusted with myself this morning when I stepped on the scale…I had been doing so well while we were in Kansas and it seems since we have been back in Missouri that my focus on me, my health, eating and drinking healthy has kind of been pushed aside.  
Oh, I am doing okay, not binging or anything like that, just not being intentional in my eating and exercising.  Some days are better than others.
And then I opened my Bible. 
To
 
and I just started crying…
Lord you are my strength, my strong tower
and I need to remember I can’t do this on my own.
I need you!!!  
And then to reinforce those thoughts
He focused me on 
Deuteronomy 8:7-18
and I like how The Message reads:

So it’s paramount that you keep the commandments of God, your God, walk down the roads he shows you and reverently respect him. God is about to bring you into a good land, a land with brooks and rivers, springs and lakes, streams out of the hills and through the valleys. It’s a land of wheat and barley, of vines and figs and pomegranates, of olives, oil, and honey. It’s land where you’ll never go hungry—always food on the table and a roof over your head. It’s a land where you’ll get iron out of rocks and mine copper from the hills. After a meal, satisfied, bless God, your God, for the good land he has given you.

Make sure you don’t forget God, your God, by not keeping his commandments, his rules and regulations that I command you today. Make sure that when you eat and are satisfied, build pleasant houses and settle in, see your herds and flocks flourish and more and more money come in, watch your standard of living going up and up—make sure you don’t become so full of yourself and your things that you forget God, your God,the God who delivered you from Egyptian slavery; the God who led you through that huge and fearsome wilderness, those desolate, arid badlands crawling with fiery snakes and scorpions;
the God who gave you water gushing from hard rock; the God who gave you manna to eat in the wilderness, something your ancestors had never heard of, in order to give you a taste of the hard life, to test you so that you would be prepared to live well in the days ahead of you.
If you start thinking to yourselves, “I did all this. And all by myself. I’m rich. It’s all mine!”—well, think again. Remember that God, your God, gave you the strength to produce all this wealth so as to confirm the covenant that he promised to your ancestors—as it is today.
It is so easy in the “good” (fill it in…busy, hectic, stressful) times to try to do things on my own and forget to seek God for his help, his guidance, his promises, to lose sight of his many blessings, his power, his strength, his love…God sees and knows everything about me…I just need to focus on him each and every day, ask Him to be with me, to help me in each activity I do, each project I engage in.
I need to remind myself each day I am not on this journey alone, that God is with me to help me do things all the way, with an enthusiasm and eagerness that comes from God.
Thank you Lord for your Word this morning, reminding me  
 
and
 
and
 
Thank you Jesus for encouraging me this morning.
It was just what I needed.

Thankful Thursday

Today is
 
and I am so thankful for a
 
I went to bed close to 1 a.m. this morning,
don’t ask me why I stayed up so late,
I was playing a couple of stupid Mahjong games
even though I was so tired!!!
And like I do each night before falling asleep I prayed.  
I thanked God for a good day, for the nice drive we had to Galena, MO to 
Lorenae Dairy where we picked up some cheese curds
and then stopped at Patrick’s Market – a little produce stand.
We bought green and purple peppers (never seen one of those), tomatoes, green beans and peaches.  
The peaches were kind of bruised but for $2 for 20 peaches we couldn’t pass them up.
And then I asked God to forgive me for not giving Him time in the morning. 
I asked Him to help me to wake up refreshed and early enough to spend some time with him.
And He did just that.
At 6:14 AM!!! 
I opened my eyes and saw blue sky and the sun peeking through.
I did think for just a moment “I can just go back to sleep” and then I remembered my prayer from last night and had to chuckle…God did what I asked, so who am I to complain or not get up.
And good thing I did.  After standing up I felt a little shaky so I checked my blood sugars…
…it was 75
 
so I headed to the kitchen and got a can of pineapple juice
and drank it slowly, trying not to let my normal low blood sugar panic take over.
Me normally when my blood sugar drops
Thank you Jesus for waking me up before my blood sugars totally crashed!
God is so Good!!
And provides for me in so many different ways!!!
I then gathered my things for some time with the Lord.
And this is where I began
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Praise Him for His mercy and strength
Praise Him for His magnificent word
Praise Him for His mighty provisions!!!
And then I had to laugh when I went to 
Mark 10:35-45
And right away I read
“Teacher (Jesus) we want you to give us what we want.”
See sometimes God gives us what we ask for or what we want
and then we have to decide if we are going to keep it, follow it, or use it.
And like last night I asked God to wake me this morning and He did…and who am I then to complain how early my day started…He only did what I asked.
So be careful what you ask for ~ you might just get it 🙂
 
But wait, God wasn’t finished with me yet this morning 🙂
I turned to 
 
And a precious memory came to mind.
The time was 1980 to 82
we were attending King Community Fellowship in Federal Way, WA.
It was a small Mennonite Brethren church but filled with wonderful God believing people.
One of the men that attended that church was Don Speer.  His son, Dick was one of our pastors.
Ron was out of the Air Force and finding work was not easy.  Don had a construction business and would hire Ron when he needed some extra help.  Well Ron was working for Don and something happened, today I can’t even remember what it was…maybe Ron remembers, but I got mad, not just a little mad but REAL MAD.  Don and I had a yelling match (who me?  yes me!) and then we didn’t speak to each other for about a month…it was a very loooonnnnnngggg month.  My anger festered.  I would give Don nasty looks whenever I saw him, at least once or twice a week as we went to church together.  Well about four or five weeks after The Incident, we were in church.  Don sitting close to the front and me way in the back.  I don’t remember the sermon but we were having the Lord’s Supper that day.  I don’t remember what Dick preached about or anything else about that Sunday except that during communion I was feeling very stubborn and I knew I wasn’t right with Don so that meant I wasn’t right with God, and I was stirring in my seat, feeling very uncomfortable and then tears started running down my cheeks and I could feel God saying to me…well, what are you going to do?  Are you going to fix the problem?  And after what seemed like hours and really was only minutes I found myself getting up and moving towards Don who by this time was coming towards me…he hadn’t taken communion either…guess God was talking to him too 🙂  I remember walking up to Don and just embracing him, hugging and crying and saying “I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry”…over and over again and right there in front of God and everyone!!! 
 
 We asked each other to forgive us for our stubbornness and bad behavior.  
And then we took communion together
.
  
And God healed us both, right there, giving us a special love and bond with each other.
Don was like a dad to me in many ways…he loved me, he cared about me and my family, he even disciplined me at times with the sharing of God’s word and how it applies to my life.
I miss Don and his wife, Joyce.  I don’t think of them often because their death was a horrible death – they were beaten and bludgeoned to death and each time I think of them that is the picture I see of them…hurting, bleeding and dying on the ground on their property.  
BUT, this morning I thought of Don with a smile on my face and warmth in my heart, remembering a man of God, who gave so much as he served so many, sharing so many blessings with those he came into contact with…and Ron and I, along with our boys were very much blessed by him.
So this morning I 
Praise God for the many blessings he has given me,
for the trials I have faced and conquered
and for His love abounding in my life.
Thank you Jesus for never waivering,
always providing,
always loving.

Tuesday’s Thoughts

It’s looking a little
 
outside this morning.  
Kind of like how I felt yesterday…foggy mind and exhausted body.
As you know, yesterday I was exhausted, wiped out, tired
but this morning I woke feeling
 
I turned off the alarms last night and slept like a 
 
I woke up about 12:30 feeling like I had slept for hours and then again briefly just before 5 and rolled over both times and fell right back to sleep.  Woke up at 7:03 this morning, feeling ready to face the day.
So thankful to God for answered prayer of a good night’s rest!
As I began my time with the Lord this morning I asked him to encourage me today.
And He did just that…
First in 
 
I was encouraged as I realized I can plan my day, my week, my life BUT
God is the one that directs my path.  God knows we have much to do around the campground, around the apartment, marketing that needs to be done YET he slowed me down yesterday because He knew I needed some down time, time to recharge my batteries, time to breathe and set my priorities.
And then
 
God will give me everything I need.  
He promises to provide for me in my whole life, not just a part of it.
He has never failed me yet.  
Yesterday I needed to rest and regroup.  
And that is what I did…had a very easy dinner – polish sausage sandwiches & watermelon…it would have been so easy to say “let’s go out to eat” where I would have over eaten and spent money we really don’t have and been more tired from being out and about.  Instead we walked to the rig just after 5 p.m.  had a great big slice of 
 
and then made polish sausage sandwiches on cheese/onion rolls.  
Easy and delicious and very filling.
Spent a little bit of the evening on the computer and watched Glades with the hubs.
A very relaxing evening, made perfect as God guided me in thoughts of what to make for dinner and a quiet evening with my hubby…we didn’t even talk about work!!
Slept well last night,
enjoyed my time with the Lord this morning,
feel ready to face the day
and changed some of my plans for today to not be so busy:
Today I will 
work in the campground office for a little bit,
then clean the Lower Level Bathroms
and the Cabin.
Take a deep breathe, make some lunch, figure out what is for dinner
pay some bills and straighten up the rig.
One observation I have made over the years…when the rig or house is messy I feel flustered 
and even get a little snarky with people (sorry Ron) so to make me feel better I do a little 
 
or in this case some
 
cleaning in the rig 🙂
Hope each of you have a great day!

Rambling

Rambling Thoughts

 
to the point of exhaustion.
Went to bed and was asleep last night by 7:30 p.m.
Woke up shortly after midnight 
and couldn’t go back to sleep till almost 2 a.m.
Alarm went off at 5 a.m.
Turned it off and slept till almost 8 a.m.

Grabbed a couple of hard boiled eggs and a banana for breakfast.
Drank a 33 oz bottle of water.

Was dragging and headed to the rig for lunch.
Made
 
and then made my way back to the office.

Worked on some marketing for the campground.
Folded  a load of clothes…
loving having a washer & dryer to use anytime!!
Worked on a couple more lists of projects for the campground 
and the apartment.
Feeling 
and
like there is
 
that

Just wanted to let you know how I was feeling
and that I hadn’t dropped off the face of the earth!

Still here

Speaking before Thinking!!

 
Yesterday I posted at Branson View Campground on Facebook that it was Friday.  Well sweet Froggy Mommy informed me it was really Thursday!!!  That’s why this picture jumped out at me..so surprised I get to do Friday over!!!  Now how cool is that???
My time with the Lord this morning was found in
Isaiah 53
 
And this is what jumped out at me:
 
and
 
but this really jumped out at me
Yet, He opened not his mouth
and
So, he opened not his mouth
you know like this:
 
 
My paraphrase:
Isaiah 53:4-12
4.  He bore my grief, carried my sorrows
5.  He was wounded by my transgressions, bruised for my iniquities.
By HIS stripes I am healed
6.  Like sheep I have gone astray
7.  Yet, He opened not his mouth
He was oppressed and afflicted
He was lamb as a lamb to slaughter
So, He opened not His mouth
8.  He was cut off from the land of the living
9b.  Nor was any deceit in his mouth
 11.  He bore my iniquities
12.  He bore all my sin
And made intercession for me.
The Spirit of God uses the Word of the Lord to change our hearts!
And then in 
 
And this thought came to mind
 
And then I was reminded that if I really want things to be different then I need to ASK God to walk beside me each day, to show me His ways and to impart His wisdom to show me what I need to do.

God is so good to meet me right where I am each morning, each moment of the day!!!

In so many ways this morning I was reminded to 
So in reality I am changing my schedule once again.  
Beginning tomorrow, because today has already begun…
Getting up at 
A.M.
and then

 
then
 
and
  
then
 
and then going to work!!!
 
all by
A.M.
Check in tomorrow and see how the morning goes!!!
How is your schedule going?
Are you getting done each day what you want/need to do?
What tricks do you use to get things done in a timely manner?

Welcome to Wacky Wednesday as the picture says!!

In honor of my friends, Froggy Mommy and Froggy Donna
 
Good morning all!!!
Don’t know how Wacky today will be 
but wishing each of a great day!!!
Had a very slow start to my morning.  The alarm went off at 6:00 and I finally sat up and got moving about 6:10 a.m.  It is very quiet out this morning, have only heard one bird and it is like he is saying “Hey, hey, hey” like trying to get someone’s attention and no one is listening.

Isn’t it amazing how God uses our surroundings 
to meet us right where we are at.

Psalm 130:1-6 was the scripture for this morning (NIV)

A song of ascents.

Out of the depths I cry to you, Lord;
    Lord, hear my voice. 
Let your ears be attentive to my cry for mercy.

If you, Lord, kept a record of sins, Lord, who could stand?
But with you there is forgiveness, so that we can, 
with reverence, serve you.

I wait for the Lord, my whole being waits,  
and in his word I put my hope.
I wait for the Lord more than watchmen wait for the morning.


 Psalm 130:1-6 by Ali Workentin

Crying out to the Lord
Begging Him to hear my voice
It seems forever before I hear from Him
But wait, if I am patient God will respond
I just need to be still, just be and
God will answer in His timing not mine.

Reflecting about a time in the past where I was constantly busy, never sitting still
Being encouraged to BE, JUST BE
 
And I am so thankful for a pastor, a counselor and many friends who encouraged me, loved on me, sat with me while I cried, prayed with me and encouraged me to WAIT it (the feelings, the anxiety, the angst) out.
  
Who taught me to 
 
And to get those 
Wild Horses
 
into the corral
 
To
 
And to remember
 
What are you eager to do that God is telling you to slow down and Just Be?
Me…God is telling me to relax, don’t overstress about stuff, 
 
make the list of all the things I think need to be done right now and then take them one at a time, enjoying 
 
Have a great day!!!  
Let me know how your day was!!