A Long Night

What a long night – I had multiple blood sugar lows starting in the evening. I mean lows – 54!!! I think over the course of 12 hours I have had 6 glucose tablets!!! If you’ve never had one ~ it’s like eating chalk! Or what I imagine what chalk tastes like. Powdery and dry. I find myself gagging a few times when they are in my mouth.

And this kind of stuff is what makes me ask myself ~ why bother trying to eat healthy? I go through this cycle – build up to start eating better, make healthy food choices, avoid the cookies and candy and about day three or four (this time it is actually day 9). Well it started on day 6 with feeling nauseous most of the day, lots of gas (they don’t smell good and are embarrassing! even in the quiet of our little home on wheels). Move to day 7 – not too bad, was able to go get a pedicure

YEP Ron got his nails done in Seahawks colors!!! It was fun to sit together and we laughed a lot while the gal painted Ron’s toes…he said it felt weird 😂 and then watch a couple of movies with Ron.

Then trouble began…I thought I was going to be sick but after drinking some lemon water and sitting back with my eyes closed it seemed to pass.

UNTIL Sunday morning!!! Let’s just say it was not a pretty site and lots of tears were shed. I sent my doctor an email asking for a referral to the endocrinologist ~ something B & D have been encouraging me to do for quite a while. I haven’t heard from her yet so will reach out again today.

Yesterday at work included many trips to the restroom – it’s hard to work when every 30 to 45 minutes I have to make a beeline down the hall. Good thing there isn’t much between my desk and the door.

Came home from work, walked Charlie – it was like he was expecting it as when I opened up the door he sat right in front of me!! I didn’t walk far out the door turn left go past the first trailer then walk the cul de sac (eight trailers in there), did notice a new rig in the back of the circle – they have quite a big yard that way. Came back home and made some dinner: chicken and tater tots. Tasted pretty good buy by 8:30 my BG had dropped to 69 – how can that be? took me 2 glucose tablets to get it back up to 76. It stayed in the low 90’s till I went to bed about 8:30.

At 10:07 I woke up sweating and the alarm blaring! What the heck??? Got up, ate a glucose tablet and started feeling better. Back to sleep I went. I must have not been up long because I never heard Ron come in the door.

Wakened at 2:29a with a BG reading of 54! Three glucose tablets later (15 minutes between each one when I check my blood sugar) before it finally went up to 69. I drank about a 1/3 glass of oj and went back to sleep. Being RUDELY awakened at 5:13 alarm blaring. Since my alarm was set for 5:15 I got up, drank some more juice, made my lunch and picked up my Bible. I’m starting a 7 day Bible study of Luke 11:1-4 ~ The Lord’s Prayer

What caught my attention was “Thy will be done” – so often I feel like I’m making the decisions with not much guidance and this morning I thought about how that relates to my journey with diabetes. What does the Lord want me to do? My body is supposed to be His Temple yet at times I feel betrayed by it/Him…I take my diabetes medication, I try not to over indulge too much and I’m trying to drink half my weight in water. Not doing very well – yesterday was only 40 ounces…let’s just say that’s not even close!!

Back to the verses – I find myself asking “Lord what do I do? What do I need to do to have pretty steady numbers? I get so frustrated with eating well all day, then grabbing 2 or 3 mini peanut butter cups to bring my blood sugar back up ~ I hate how I feel when I’m dealing with the lows: shaky, dry mouth, sweating ~ you get the picture.

What can I do to be more steady in my numbers, there has to be a balance somewhere.

Today I can make good choices, be intentional of drinking water every hour and call the doctor back about the referral.

And now it’s time to head to work…please say a prayer that I don’t have any crashes today and that I make the time to reach back out to the doctor.