I left y’all yesterday so I could go to the doctor ~ first off, we both really like Dr. Nesmith! He listens, asks great questions, tells us like it is, took the time to answer all my questions and even asked a few of his own LOL! And he’s very handsome LOL!
He checked my foot…gave me nine exercises to do…start with one, then add the others in as my foot begins to feel better…said to start back on walking, short 5 minute walks and to be patient…plantar fasciitis takes a long time to heal…be patient ~ he obviously doesn’t know me yet!!! Hey if anyone has any of those stretchy bands that are just tucked away somewhere, this gal would be so appreciative to have them. We discussed the need to change my insulin…what was covered by insurance in Florida is not covered here in South Carolina so will be starting on Toujeo in the next week…praying for the funds to come in to cover that.
And before YOU send me a text telling me to stop begging for money…not begging at all just saying how it is. Yes I was told by someone that when I share we are having a financial need that it sounds like I’m begging and to stop sharing the personal stuff…well I’ve decided God loves me just the way I am and like I told Dr. Nesmith…what you see is what you get…yes I wear my emotions on my sleeve, yes I probably share too much but if it doesn’t come out it tears me up on the inside and I start down the slippery slope!!! And we all know that is not a good thing.
Back to my doctor’s visit…as he said, I was headed down a rabbit trail! I lost 7 lbs since leaving Florida!!! Yay me!!! And that’s with having a foot I could hardly walk on!!! Had 3 vials of blood taken…hey, I’m thankful she got it…it took two arms and three pokes but she got what she needed. Doc said he would call if things didn’t look good but to remember “no news is good news.” We talked about my anxiety and depression…he increased my antidepressant, thanked me for being honest with him about how I was doing. And he would see me in six weeks!!!
So I give praise to God for allowing me to find this new doctor, for there being no issues having Ron go with me and for a listening ear!!! Yes, I’m feeling encouraged.
We spent the rest of the day just relaxing and I did a little crocheting. Got an order for four eyelet purses and want to get them done and in the mail by the end of the week…I will share pictures when they are finished. The best part is I didn’t need to purchase any yarn so the stash is getting smaller and soon I hope to have another happy customer!!!
This morning I opened my Bible…was going to read Proverbs 7 ~ you know chapter 7 for the day of the month, but my Bible opened up to Proverbs 6 and the daily devotion was titled “The Anatomy of a Sin Addiction” there’s that word again ~ addiction! I had to chuckle as I thought “Lord, help me to focus on the positive today, to count my blessings and not my addiction to negativity.”
I turned to The Message…it shares in plain, easy to understand English:
Romans 7: 14-16 I can anticipate the response that is coming: “I know that all God’s commands are spiritual, but I’m not. Isn’t this also your experience?” Yes. I’m full of myself—after all, I’ve spent a long time in sin’s prison. What I don’t understand about myself is that I decide one way, but then I act another, doing things I absolutely despise. So if I can’t be trusted to figure out what is best for myself and then do it, it becomes obvious that God’s command is necessary. 17-20 But I need something more! For if I know the law but still can’t keep it, and if the power of sin within me keeps sabotaging my best intentions, I obviously need help! I realize that I don’t have what it takes. I can will it, but I can’t do it. I decide to do good, but I don’t really do it; I decide not to do bad, but then I do it anyway. My decisions, such as they are, don’t result in actions. Something has gone wrong deep within me and gets the better of me every time.21-23 It happens so regularly that it’s predictable. The moment I decide to do good, sin is there to trip me up. I truly delight in God’s commands, but it’s pretty obvious that not all of me joins in that delight. Parts of me covertly rebel, and just when I least expect it, they take charge.24 I’ve tried everything and nothing helps. I’m at the end of my rope. Is there no one who can do anything for me? Isn’t that the real question?25 The answer, thank God, is that Jesus Christ can and does. He acted to set things right in this life of contradictions where I want to serve God with all my heart and mind, but am pulled by the influence of sin to do something totally different.
And I was encouraged again…to remember to breathe, take one step at a time, don’t worry about tomorrow, to do things in love just as Jesus loved me, to keep trusting Jesus, to be me.
As I think about today and looking around our little home on wheels
I see that just like my life gets filled with stuff and junk that our little home on wheels needs some attention so I think it’s time to crank up the worship music, do some cleaning and then go for a little walk, remembering to breathe in, to be in the moment and to remind myself don’t stress about tomorrow, just enjoy today and to count my blessings!!!
Maybe that’s what I will do tomorrow morning…start a list of all my blessings, wonder if I can list them one by one…what about you ~ do you want to join me tomorrow in writing out all your blessings?