I made it…got all five days of writing in…well it did take me 7 days but hey at least I finished.
The prompt for today: Today, we’ll end our walk down memory lane on a high note. Think about some of the obstacles you’ve overcome in your life and how you managed to get past them. What has been your proudest moment thus far? We’ll spend our writing time today on answering the following questions: what are the challenges you faced on your way to your proudest moment? is this moment a result of something you achieved? do you feel properly acknowledged for it?
I think the biggest obstacle I have faced in life is emerging from being raised in an abusive family setting, being raised by divorced parents, feeling ugly a lot of my childhood, wondering why me when I lost my eye, being sexually abused by someone who was supposed to love me…emerging
Emerging like a butterfly from a cocoon…I remember when we were having issues with our oldest son when he was 16. He tried to say I was the one responsible for all of his bad choices. I remember sitting on my hands (I can’t talk if my hands are stationary) and listening to him going on and on about how bad his life was and it was all my fault. I waited for him to finish talking and I finally said…you are right, I have not always been the best mom BUT you are now 16 and you are responsible for the choices you make now.
I remember sitting in multiple therapy sessions blaming my dad, my mom, my step-dad for all the anger in my life until I realized what I told Jamie at 16 was the same for me at 35, 40, 45 and even now at 63…no one is responsible for my actions/my choices but me. Yes the things that happened to me as a young child, as a teenager and a young adult were not my fault but the response I give today is my choice.
I think the overall obstacle in my life has been not knowing how to love myself for me, for how God designed me to be. I have had to learn to love me the way Jesus loves me.
And this is what and how I had to picture myself…Jesus just loving on me, taking care of me, basking in His love to learn to love myself so that I could love others. And that is what I think I do best…loving others!!!
What do you think is the biggest obstacle you have had to overcome?