Yesterday was a hard day for me,

a day of coming to Jesus meeting again…

…about my health

and before I continue

I know…

but sometimes it’s hard to remember

not to be hard on myself.

I think back to a counseling session with Tom…

Awareness

+

Contact

=

Change

I found this…

I had a real hard time falling asleep last night,

my mind was having a hay day

of the things I know I  need to do

and sleep just would not come.

When sleep finally came

I had crazy dreams…

dreams of conflict and arguing

and sitting on Pastor C’s couch and crying,

seeing Marla T and asking

“why can’t I just change?”

“how come I don’t have enough will power to do things differently?”

When I turned on my laptop this morning

this was the verse/art for the day

I want to be like Job…facing the difficult things

without complaining or making excuses.

Yesterday is over, can’t change the fact I ate 3 donuts!!! It is what it is!!!

Spoke to Dr. S…need to see her in one month

A1C is 11!!!  Extremely high…causing some confusion as I have lost weight but A1C is out of control…I do make good food choices once in awhile, even a couple days in a row

but then I fall back and go for the donut or the Milky Way candy bar.

So I need to…

and

and remember

So for today

I have a plan…to…

drink my water,

eat a healthy breakfast,

make a healthy dinner for Ron & I

and to walk some extra steps when I check in trucks throughout the day.

Spend some time in the Word,

focus on the positive…

and look forward to the day,

bring a smile to a driver’s face

and try real hard to give myself the grace that I so easily give to others,

acknowledge I am not perfect,

and I have a second chance to make good food choices today.

Replace the negative feelings

with positive ones!!

and now NOT feeling so discouraged

BUT

encouraged!!!