Below is my response to her but really wanted to expand on it.
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Why are we staying here – first off I did not take the post as being mean as it is a question we have been and are asking ourselves quite often.
I wish I had an easy answer but even thinking of answering the question is hard as we have strong feelings in multiple directions. On our good days, which are many we are very happy and content yet in the moment of chaos, struggles and raging boys testosterone our hearts break for the pain the boys are dealing with. We have come to love these boys in ways we never thought possible and many in our care are cracking the door of their pain to let us in.
As we have processed the past 24 hours we see lots of good and yes some hard difficult stuff – is bad the right word I don’t think so – difficult hurtful painful and definitely scary we (I) immediately in the moment am ready to go out the door to never return but then we/I stop and think what does that model to the boys as Christmas, parents/grandparents, caring human beings – “do we toss the baby out with the bath water”
Answering here is awkward on my phone. Let me grab my laptop and write this out in an easier manner as well as get feedback from Ron Workentin.
This morning I shared more about Lent
and used this in my talk
stressing about words
and how hurtful they can be
even when people say “just kidding”
and how each of us need to be a bit more
patient with each other ~ yes we are all living
in one home and yes we try to be a family
not by blood but
believing God has brought us all together
for such a time as this.
Many have asked
“why don’t you just quit?”
Quitting is not the easiest thing
we have financial obligations,
we like to eat,
we like to travel
and most of all we need to continue to build our savings.
And even more than that,
we really do love these boys
and feel we are here for a reason.
Maybe that reason is not for the boys
but for us to learn more about ourselves,
grow in our faith in the Lord
and building our marriage to even more than what it is.
Right this moment I am thankful
two of our boys have gone home for spring break,
leaving six behind,
tomorrow I take D to an adoption interview which will give us one-on-one
time and less stressful for me.
Saturday Ron is planning to take the other five boys fishing for most of the day
and then in the evening we will be going to an evening
worship service which means
we get to sleep in on Sunday morning!!
Monday another boy will be going to his grandmothers
and Tuesday another boy to his sisters
leaving us with four boys of our own
and two from another unit ~ both are fairly easy
and then Wednesday we are off!!!