Restless Exhaustion

Now isn’t that an oxymoron?
Restless ~ can’t sit still, feeling anxious, constantly moving
Exhaustion ~ tired, not moving, 
That is how I was yesterday.  
Feeling restless, like there is so much to do.
And there is: checkbooks to be balanced, kitchen to be cleaned, 
a cabin needing cleaning, bathrooms needing some attention,
dinner to be fixed, and the list goes on and on….
And not knowing where to even begin.
Adding in an appointment smack dab in the middle of the day,
guests checking in, telephone ringing,
mail to be answered, evening plans and the list goes on and on…
And feeling exhausted, to keep from 
getting the cold and achyness that hubby brought home from Portland.
So tired, just wanted to go to bed,
afraid to sit down for fear going to fall asleep 
wherever I sit.
And so I crawled into bed just after 7 p.m.
And was asleep before 8 p.m.
(I know because I missed the end of Dateline)
And finally woke up at 7:22 a.m.
Yep, I think I was tired.
Got up, dressed, started my morning routine
and thought crap! it’s already 9 a.m.
time to open the office.
Nope, only 8:01 a.m.
So asked myself
Do I spend time in the Word or just open the office?
Time in the Word…
…important for me, helps me to get off on a good foot.
And once again
God is Faithful!!!
Question of the day:  Do people encounter Christ when they meet me?
I would say yes, most of the time,
but on mornings when I feel rushed and discombombulated – ummm NO!
God affirming to me it was right to spend this hour with Him.
Variety of Scriptures this morning
Psalm 103:19-22
A reminder that there is comfort in knowing
God has power over everything,
especially with all the changes and instability 
happening in our world today.
And remembering
Romans 8:31
And Joshua 3:7-8
God said to Joshua, “This very day I will begin to make you great in the eyes of all Israel. They’ll see for themselves that I’m with you in the same way that I was with Moses. You will command the priests who are carrying the Chest of the Covenant: ‘When you come to the edge of the Jordan’s waters, stand there on the river bank.’”
As God was with Moses, He will always be with me!
Ephesians 2:14-18
And finally
Hebrews 12:14
I think a lot about Peace…
peace in relationships,
peace in my heart and soul
living in peace
and I cling to
for something I crave and have absolutely no control over
a healed relationship
with my younger sister.
And I have to remind myself
It is all in God’s timing.
God knows the desires of my heart
and I have peace 
in my heart that 
God hears my prayers.
Today I am thankful for a new day,
to live in Christ
and knowing without a shadow of doubt
that one day, some how, some way
I will be reconciled with my sister.

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