Thoughts ~ Round 2

Let me begin by addressing an email I received regarding my previous post. It has to do with this statement ~ “I feel like I am just existing and not doing that very well at it.”

This statement has to do with my feelings and my current day-to-day life. A typical workday for me begins with getting up between 6 and 6:30a, get dressed, walk Charlie, take my morning meds, check my BG fasting numbers, pack my lunch and if there is time, maybe watching the news or listening to some gospel music before heading out the door. I typically work 7.5 hours a day, Monday thru Friday. For 8 weeks in the summer my hours change to 10-hour days for 4 days a week with Friday’s off. Those 4 day/10-hour workday weeks is a double-edged sword ~ I (and Ron) like having Friday’s off, giving us a 3-day weekend on the other hand by Friday I (and Ron) are ready for some sleep and usually sleep in on Friday.

Weekends have some routine to it, as Ron works every other Sunday to cover the building for a church that uses Charles S Rushe MS for their church building. We have a few months of Saturday soccer and then basketball. Ron usually makes it to all the games, me not so much. I think I get to about half the games as I sleep in a lot more than Ron 😊. Sometimes we do things with Brandon & Danalyn and the boys, sometimes Dan & Lynda are there as well (Dan & Lynda are Danalyn’s parents). We are so thankful for the family time we have.

With us traveling for 13 years we didn’t always get to have “family time events.” Family times is one of our best blessings here in Florida.

Some of the changes in the last two years, since landing in Land O Lakes, we don’t go for “Sunday drives,” we seldom go to church ~ we have gone to a few churches but just didn’t seem to click for one reason or another. We spend a lot of time hanging out in our trailer and at the campground.

We moved to a new campground the middle of January of this year. We had been at Lake Bambi RV & Mobile Home Park. The advertisement for Lake Bambi is very different from what is actually there ~ lots of broken roads, flooding in multiple parts of the park, rigs and mobile homes covered with tarps, a laundry room that leaves a lot to be desired with no other amenities.

We are now at Winter Quarters/Encore Park ~ the link to Winter Quarters is right on. The campground is clean, people are super friendly, the pool & hot tub are a great perk that we truly enjoy. Ron works 9 minutes from the campground, gets off at 9:30p and the pool closes at 10:00pm so many nights after work he stops, soaks in the hot tub for 10 minutes or so then he showers and gets home about 10:05pm

If you would like our new address, drop me a note and I will send it to you.

The very routine of our daily life is where the comment I feel like I am just existing. I miss traveling, and meeting new people at every turn.

I say, “not doing that very well at it” reflects how I am doing all the things I like and enjoy but don’t seem to have the energy to do. Some of those things includes reading, writing, going for drives and checking out new locations.

And that thought has brought many other thoughts, asking why a lot, how can I change what I feel is missing. It’s easy to say “just make time to read” or “go for a drive on Saturday’s” but making changes is hard when one is hurting physically (some of you know I have had extreme shoulder/arm issues since the middle of November. Some days the pain is so intense I am unable to make it to work – that’s hard because I feel like I’m letting my boss down as well as co-workers.

I find myself saying quite often it’s stinkin’ hard eating my own words!” I have learned over the years to extend grace to others but I’m still struggling with extending grace to myself. I hear myself making excuses for why I don’t do this or that and then I get angry at myself because I really am unable to do this or that. And I don’t want others to think I’m being lazy or a number of other negative words.

Once again, I find myself out of time while writing this post as I need to head to the doctor to address some of my ailments and see if we can find some solutions. More to come later, probably tomorrow 😉